So the night before, I had a nightmare that I remember vividly. It’s as if it really happened and it has ruined my whole day. It is not a nightmare about ghosts or the paranormal. But instead, my engagement ended in the dream.
(Words in blue are IRL and the ones in red are in the dream. Skip this paragraph if you do not want to know the details of the nightmare but read the next for my verdict on this)
So the dream spanned over a few days to a week. I mean, it’s just 1 nightmare but in the dream, it was a few days to a week. My fiance accepted a friend request from this girl on Facebook. I do not personally know this girl IRL but I do know her from social network sites like Facebook and Instagram. Now, IRL my fiance is not the kind who’d add girls in Facebook(he only has Facebook and no other social network) unless they are his family members, relatives, or mine. He does have a few girl friends on Facebook and those are my friends too. He doesn’t even have any girl’s phone number in his phone, again, other than his family members or mine. Back to the dream; he accepted her friend request and proceeded to contact her; from FB pm, to sms-es, phone calls and a few days later, her meets her. Surprisingly, he informed me of all this. Although I was jealous, I trusted him cos he said she has an interesting personality and he would like her to be his friend. I guess I was stupid and shouldn’t have trusted so much. Anyways, he meets her one day and ironically, came to my house together with her to hang out. I was kinda okay with it, I thought, hey, he does treat her as a friend since he wants to introduce her to me and maybe their friendship were like bros. But when he started too ignore me but was so chatty with her, that’s when it started to smell fishy. He later massaged her feet followed by her shoulders. Of course, I bingit la. I confronted him. He left with her. The next day, he met me and we had an argument that led to him ending our engagement so that he can be with her.
I definitely woke up really angry and felt really down. It ruined my whole day and I kept crying at random at work. Throughout the almost 9 years together, we have never once been unfaithful to each other. I am very confident in saying this because he is with me all the time, except for when he sleeps. I know all of his friends and vice versa. If you’ve read my previous posts, we are still very much in love and in lust and we are very happy together. There are many factors as to why I am confident but hey, I shall not bore you too much la haha. I told my mum and a few of my colleagues about this dream. I also did a google search. I found out that there are a few reasons as to why I dreamt that. It can be just a random nightmare, it can be because I have been very stressed with the wedding preps and people around me and that this is just that coming back into my dream in the form of another person, it can be Syaitan or Jin trying to put bad thoughts into my mind that might lead to us cancelling our marriage, it can be that a Jin is trying to stop us from getting married because he/she is in love with either of us, or it can be that someone is trying to stop us from getting married by using black magic or voodoo. My mum told me that orang yang tengah tunang ni darah manis. Syaitan suka kacau and and will do all they can to stop the marriage. Simply because, nikah is a form of ibadah and everything we do after nikah is halal, as compared to before nikah where kisses, hugs etc are sins.
I personally think the most valid reasons are that I am very stressed and the problems came to me in the form of a person, and that syaitan suka kacau and will do all they can to stop the marriage. I have heard plenty of stories from married friends, and friends who sadly ended their engagements. I was told all these problems, be it the dream or other problems I am facing(actually not even a problem but others seem to make it a problem when it really has nothing to do with them), are all a test, Syaitan’s work. And all these problems will somehow or rather happen throughout the engagement but especially so when the wedding date is closer. But once the nikah dah di lafaz, these nonsensical problems will miraculously stop.
Any of you BTBs/GTBs encountered or currently facing this kinda things before? Do share, if you don’t mind.
In closing,
Insyaallah, my tunang and I, as well as all you BTBs/GTBs will have the strength to go through all these tests and whatever negativity that comes our way.
Erratic Espousal 